I haven’t looked at photos of me and my old travel buddy in a few years. Ever since we parted ways actually.
It was too hard to remember all those good times. To see how close we were and be reminded that it was over.
So I didn’t.
I left the photos on my iPad and computer but never flipped through them.
Distance always makes things better.
And it did.
Until this weekend when my iPad memory got full and I needed to erase photos to make space for a software update.
Then I tiptoed down memory lane. Revisited Thailand and Shanghai. All these memories flooded back.
Life was different 3 years ago…
It was a time when I thought we’d be friends for life. I never expected it to only last 4 years. But that’s what happened.
It’s all over now.
Photos are so powerful. They summon a moment back into reality.
And it hurt to go there and realize that it’s over. And it can never be again.
That I’m not the same and he’s not the same and we had these amazing moments that can never happen again.
I think sometimes it’s better to not have mementos. To let things slip gently into boxes in the basement of your mind.
For a moment, I thought I should delete all my photos. Wipe them out of existence. Make the forgetting come faster.
But then I saw this gorgeous shot of the ocean. And I was right back there on the beach.
And I found myself smiling. Because those were good moments. Moments I want to hold onto.
Pictures can give you a moment back. They can let you revisit a good time even if it’s long gone.
And I’ll be keeping my photo library. Just not on my iPad.